in my life, i have confused love with the fear of loss, the fear of change, the fear of letting go, and the fear of never finding my soulmate on so many occasions that i have pursued all the wrong people, trying to make them the right ones. i have falsely declared love where it was not. i unhappily settled in places where there was always something missing. until now. all i ever knew were the wrong people and painful roads, so i mistook bad males for good men. i did it as close as last year. but as i have grown and endured, i have learned. and as i have taken a chance months ago and had true love touch my heart, i have been blessed to see and know the difference, to know what i want and to know what i deserve. i have learned what is truly worth pursuing, waiting for, & fighting for.