My Final Moments
by: Allison Ryder
hands wrapped around my neck tightly,
suffocate my past, strangle my future.
i’ve been here before.
destroyed, surrounded in darkness.
sacrificed for a heart
that i’ve been murdered by.
why try. why attempt.
bones grind in dusted debris-
debris shouldn’t hurt but it clings to,
consumed my skin in the shadows
so you can’t see it in the light.
emptiness tingles my veins,
destruction in my bloodstream.
punished by the lies he delivers in sweetness,
that i took as truth.
end it all tonight. i give up.
fading into nothing.
i’m just someone i can’t reach,
someone i’ll never be.
how do i say i love you, to someone
who’s not ready to hear it.
my body goes through it again. sacrifice.
i give up my dreams
for someone else’s. only it’s different this time.
i can’t come home. this love’s too much to bear.
love is pain.
and i’m better without it.