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we all lose pieces of ourselves over the years in all the things we touch but one day, something touches us and the lost pieces get filled with something better. throughout those years, we’re also touched and also gaining different pieces of different people- coming out of it with a different perspective, lesson, achievement, love, friendship and most of the time, the people don’t stay, they go on their separate ways and we just have a piece, a memory. I always find myself reaching out to hearts, to love, to help, to write and impact and so, I’ve lost a lot of pieces of myself over the years but I’ve finally gotten the pieces back….they’re simply not my own but nevertheless they fill the emptied voids with a new life.
tomorrow doesn’t change today. this is what I want & I’m gonna do it, I’m gonna pursue it, and I’m gonna be 110% dedicated to this moment right now. whatever happens at the end doesn’t change that this is what I want now. I don’t care about the ending.. I care about the journey – the string of moments – that’s what it’s about.
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by allison ryder
it’s as if nothing is real..
how to differentiate between
what is tangible and what is make believe.
coffee, tea, and cookies were never
such a musical affair;
it’s as if the rabbit laughs
at high society. he makes a mockery
of stuck up nobody’s, with too much to say.
oh, how the perception of life
differs down here.
amusement, entertainment, and laughter
soak up every step. colors emerge
in thin air. animals personified.
but most of all, it is the mystery.
the riddle of intrigue,
the lesson. we tumble down
a dark hole, derived
from struggles and sorrows.
said to have gone mad..
at the bottom,
we find new life.
we see the true reflections
we achieve the impossible.
for here, there are no limits.
that nothing is impossible.
mad as he was, he spoke
all the best people are mad,
for they are the ones
who can make wonderland
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when you grow up or spend your life constantly having to defend yourself, it infects your mind and begins to dictate how people treat you – friends, family members, lovers – and it’s what you’ve become accustomed to because it’s what you’ve always dealt with so it’s what you’re used to and you just allow it to keep happening. unless you’ve been in this position for some significant part of your life, you don’t get it. you don’t know what it’s like to constantly have to be on the defensive side of things.. to be told what you are, who you are, to be filled with craziness, negativity, doubts, worry, guilt, insecurities.. to be muffled and screaming within. your mind becomes a crazy whirlwind and soon your words and actions follow. the only way to stop it, is to put an end to where it stems from.
if you do not end up in the next chapter of my life – it is your fault. not mine. and i hold no guilt for it. i am not going to defend who i am or my position in my own life or anyone else’s, ever again. i could give a damn what you think and even more so, i’m not going to let the craziness of any one individual or group of people infect my life or my mind. your poison is your own to bear should you choose to. it’s not my burden and i’m tired of holding your weights, your thoughts, and your opinions.
sometimes the decision to end some force of power or friendship, the decision to leave, or the decision to change and take that initiative to really change is such an eye opener, that you can’t go back from it. and the best part is, you don’t want to.
just a song of inspiration while writing this piece.
sometimes the hardest thing in the world is to let go of someone; whether it be within friendship, family, or relationships but it’s emotionally damaging to continue to find good qualities within the questionable characters of people. trying to see and find the good in people is no crime but allowing the bad in people to stain your life, to stress you out, and to anchor you down is a crime against yourself. dna is not what creates that special bond; it’s people who want to be in your life, who love you and care for you truly, who are honest with you and respect you, as well as themselves, who in some small way, make your life better. letting go is difficult because of time invested, the bond, the circumstance but sometimes it is the best thing you can do for yourself. people change and holding onto who they were won’t change them back. and some people always were the way you never saw. you have people who want to be in your life and who fit these details, those are the ones you direct your energy towards.. the rest, you stop over-analyzing and you just let it go. be brave enough to stand up for yourself and be smart enough to know you can try but there are no guarantees when dealing with another human being- you can care because you’re a good person but you cannot sit back and allow poison to seep into your life because in trying to save someone who’s not there, you won’t survive.
let it all go.