actions, allison ryder, argumenf, behavior, bleed, blood, cover up, expectation, family, flaws, follow through, friendship, games, honesty, lies, love, loyalty, one sided, pain, quotes, spite, truth, unconditional
the debacle of family is what makes blood what it is, is the expectation of loyalty but not delivering it..when it’s only one sided, it’s like choosing a friend over your family and then getting mad when family does the same. the debacle of blood is the necessity of honesty, of not playing games, or ever trying to intentionally hurt the other person but in anger, handing out addresses like a fucking executioner. the argument differentiating family and friends is the unconditional love and secrets families can hold without end but the true reality is friends speak anger and flaws to you, while family tells the whole world a partial truth that justifies them and makes someone else look bad; pity me and hate them because I’m the victim..no. that’s not how this will go. the thing about blood is it’s supposed to come first but when blood is constantly being spilled and bandaged up so the full truth’s not seen, when the bandage is ripped off, you bleed out.
It’s not about the expectation that someone will do what you will, be there like you have, love like you can.. it’s the belief that they’re a good person and then the pain of betrayal when you find out they’re not decent enough to even be honest, selfless enough to return the favor of comforting you, or care enough to apologize. it’s not some expectation of equality, it’s more the belief of knowing someone and then in your own darkest hour, the realization that you don’t.