even though it’s not a house that makes a home but the people and the love, emotion weakens me as it becomes someone else’s.
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by: allison ryder
dirt brown stands tall as
forest and autumn emerge on its tips,
but there lies no roots. it is said:
the lack of veins allows the flutter in the wind.
it can move and in movement,
it can grow.
not tied down; neither
to landfill nor island.
an everlasting ability to be on a search
for purpose, for meaning, for exploration.
to search this world at new heights without
the painful, guilty, insecure, doubtful
attachment of those left behind.
the pain. the sorrow. the anger. the loss.
the abandonment. fuel the journey-
motivates the mind. to leave.
to take the chances we fear,
to make the jumps into an unknown abyss.
it’s easier to leave when you have no roots.
there are no goodbye’s or fears
of illness and death,
of losing time.
but to let roots hold us down, hold us back-
is to have branches like puppets,
living a life we were not made for-
a life like a silhouette shadow,
it is to have branches with buds
that never bloom.
an orphan has no roots
but it has flowers.
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i’m on the road of change; the twisted turns of new beginnings, the uproar of controversy, the raceway to everything imaginable and impossible. i’m an artist. a writer. a romantic. an adventure seeker. a risk taker. a lover. a baker. a photographer. a racer. a bartender. an advice giver. a daughter. a friend. a sister. an aunt. i’m a lot of intricate and complex puzzle pieces striving to impact the world through the written word. books will never be extinct as long as i am alive. it is an amazingly powerful thing to know why you were born; to know your purpose – to have dreams and passions, and courageously and fearfully pursue each and every one of them but at the end of the day, always bring it back to that one thing you know you were meant to do. i want to move people, shock people, touch people.. with my words, and i’m going to do just that. i’ve always been told it’s not logical how i live my life. my dreams aren’t logical. my beliefs are not realistic. i am not doing what “i’m supposed to do.” but i am doing what i believe is right. this is my life and i am going to live it my way. judgment, criticism, disappointment. i can take it. i can’t take living a life for somebody else, living it the way they want me to. i work hard, no matter what the job is. i take things very seriously, sometimes too serious – work and relationships alike. because my heart knows the value of the things i pursue and you can tell me i’m wrong and i’m not on the “right road,” and maybe it’s not acceptable to you but it’s my road, and it’s my journey.. so you can embrace and accept who i am and how i live my life or you can respectfully get out of my way. because nothing you say can stop me. i don’t give up. once my heart and my time is invested, my entire being is invested and that’s who i am.
my focus in writing is quotes, poetry, and fiction (mostly action, romance, and supernatural). “words left unspoken” was my first book published through Janson Media in 2010. i have this ability, if you will, the purely empathetic ability to place myself in someone’s shoes and vividly imagine their battles, feel their pain. i wrote the majority of this poetry throughout my high school years and the book was meant to reveal the untold scars and battles of everyday life. it reflects a darker, deeper, and more intense aspect of life.
my writing has drastically transformed since this book was published. i am not the same person i was four years ago. i have been touched and moved by experiences and people in such a way that my entire art has transformed and it’s about that time to show the world how i’ve grown.