did you ever feel your heart break, like literally feel it break in your chest to the point where you swear you could hear it. did you ever feel it break to the point where you feel like you have no oxygen left, you can’t breathe, you’re suffocating, standing in a moving world but you’re completely still, your mind is blank. did you ever feel your heart break to the point that you think it may kill you from the inside out, you may crumble into ashes right then and there. did you ever watch the things keeping you alive, keeping you going, slowly drift away. did you ever feel such a loss, it was killing you inside, that you felt the tears build up every time you got lost in your own thoughts. did you ever feel your heartbreak to the point where you heard it crack and then just broke down..
they asked her why,
why she would do this to herself-
cozy up next to merciless men,
hands on her body,
yet, steer clear of her heart.
you know what you want-
her smile mocked them:
have you ever been so broken
you can’t breathe-
want to kill your insides,
poetically thaw out, numb the pain-
turn to alcohol to blame for
calls of longing and love,
turn to fighting
to release endorphins of anger-
cried until you were choking,
hid in the shower to hide the tears-
swear off love but mean it this time.
now have you ever been alone
on a cold night in an empty bed,
with a full memory for the one who left.
with sheer acceptance they’re never coming back.
they can steer bleat of my heart
because it’s not here anymore.
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